i need to let out all these THINGS that are in me.
ARGGHH.
its jz post menstrual stress.

jonadab scared the SHIT out of me during hist.
so i guess i did scream some shit.
and laughed it another bit out.
but still.

im putting up a facade and noone noticed!!
HOLLYWOOD! here i come!!

so many funny.. no. make that hilarious things happened today.
hahaha.
i learnt SO MANY new things.
i am currently trilingual.
HAHA.
zakir: bezevue.
me: bezevue?
zakir: NON! bezmoii!!
BEZEVUE: u are goodlooking.
BEZMOII: i am goodlooking.

stay tuned for more french lessons =)
taught by elsie.
examples by zakir.
spread by me=)


UKNOWWAT?!
UKNOWWAT?!
i loathe you.

code priceless: HANTU TETEK.
hahaha.
basic translation: BREAST GHOST.

hantu tetek(s) hide u notti little children who play hide and seek at night.
they have long, humongous, saggy breasts and hide them under them.
and it is also anyone random people that the pricelesses see.
a good illustration:
gg toilet: eh. rmbr to order from that hantu tetek. i wan pizza.

lunch with pricelesses was funny as usual.
hahaa.
trish HAD to go toilet.
and i HAD to follow.
coz she scared of hantu tetek.
so, sam sat at the table.
us: sam, DO NOT talk to strangers. esp hantu teteks.
back from the toilet....*giggle*
us: SAM? SAM? is that you? or are you a hantu tetek disguising as sam?
sam: WTH?!
hahha.
i told u the pricelesses are fun and crappy ppl =)
i love them very very very much.

pe tmr=)
ahaha. cant wait.

full mugging speed ahead- not.

SCHOOL OFFICIALLY STARTS TOMORROW!
i cnt wait.
canteen in the morn. wash eyes.
midday breaks. crap.
lessons. dozing off.
end school. outings!.

and the day repeats itself.

ilovea7
ilovepricelesses.
ilovefocers.

to admire you from afar is more than enough.
i shall always be insignificant.

i am here blogging while most of my classmates are mugging.
how nice =)

was on the way back frm zad's take 2 teenage icon thigamajig.
HE GOT THRU! yay!!
anyways.
i was whining to farah abt this feeling ive had since some time ago.
u know.
the feeling when u go shopping,
see this particular top that looks ABSOLUTELY gorgeous on you
BUT costs WAYYYYY above ur income.
ARGH. totally the same.
as in to how i am feeling.

and i HATE it.

zad sang if tomorrow never comes by ronan keating.
and towards the end of the song there are thesethree lines:
So tell someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes.

but then again.
would anyone risk their friendship
for a relationship?

i cnt believe sch starts on monday.
MONDAY.

ohwell.
i do miss my classmates. esp pricelesses
oh. the craziness.
and the cricket girls.
but like sam said:
i dont feel like gg to sch.

me neither.

i dunno if this piece of news will make u happy.
or maybe.
it wont even make a difference in ur life.
i am no longer significant in it anyways.

wat is left of my holidays are friday, saturday, sunday and monday.
of which. my aunt&family is coming frm msia on saturday and sunday.
WHICH leaves me friday and monday to mug,.
which is NOT enough cosidering the topics i HAVENT covered.
and the things i have yet to shop for.

#the world i want right now#
-fats does not exist. in or outside the body.
-driving licence are issued at time of birth.
-babies are allowed to drive their own car on AUTOPILOT. destination set by parents. this autopilot thing will automatically dysfunction as the child turns 18.
-humans only require 2hrs of sleep and still can last for the rest of the 22 hours. (like long life battery like that)
-handphne bills are paid by the government.
-when u drink beer, it wont make u drunk.
-plastic surgery costs are paid by the government. however, the government HAS to confirm whether u need it (like >50yrs />5% fat in the body)
-making babies happen at the click of the button.
-and everyone being super nice to each other without this smirking thing happening.


i cnt bloddy hell get u out of my head lah.
and im jealous.

i mugged chemistry effectively till daniel msged me.
damn.
i didnt feel like gg in the first place.
didnt thought daniel would bother confirming with me.
haha.
so.
i didnt do so.
haha.
anyways.
mugging was oh-so-damn-fun.

CONGRATS ZAD FOR GETTING THE WILD CARD THINGY.
anyone wanna pei me to watch him on sunday?
haha.
anyways,
I DONT HAVE SCHOOL ON MONDAY.
i can jz imagine sam smirking at me right now.
heh.

found in sam's email:
"have u ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?"
yes. i have.

ohmans.
ohmans.
ohmans.
ohmans.

my mind is FILLED with regrets.
grrr.
its always LIKE THAT.
fatin,
you SHOULD be more *insert word to explain the following expression*
should just do what you want to do.
and not regret it in the end.
BLARDY BRAIN.

ohmans.
gayathri(is tt how u spell her name?)
IS DAMN HILARIOUS.
i laughed for like.
THE LONGEST TIME EVER.
haha.
like when im with pricelesses/focers.
WHEENESS.

ohmans.
i LOVE the SWING.
took like. thrice?
haha. i SWEAR.
once more. and i'll VOMIT.
the swing is like.
WOAAAAHHHH.
the thing stop.
but ur head still spinning.
ahaha.
the longer ur head spins.
the more brain juices, that hold ur brain in ur head,u have.
nono. i made that up.

fly me up to where you are
beyond the distance stars.
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for a while to know you're there.
a breath away's not far
to where you are.

BLODDY HELL LAH U TURTUR.
make mummy and daddy angry for wat?!
i cannot go see zad tmr i STRANGLE you.

RETAIL THERAPY ROCKS.
I FEEL GOOD.
nanananananana.
SO GOOD!
tut tut
SO GOOD!!

i have to bloddy hell face the fact that i like u.
and the bloddy fact that u will nvr know.

i always have random thoughts.
ESPECIALLY.
in the middle of mugging sessions.
the more intensive the session,
the more random thoughts.
so,basically, the eqn is:

intensive mugging = lots of random thoughts = lots of distraction = lose the mood to mug.

i really really really need these ppl by my side right now:
1.nicholas tarling
2.martin mccauley
3.david joel steinburg
3.john sloman.
i think i have a fetish for european scholars.

i lied for our friendship.
does that make me a bad friend?

Things i need by nxt week:
- retail therapy.
- a sugar daddy as my doctor.
- each day to be 48hrs long.
- to develop a 'instant genius' pill.

Retail Therapy
can be done with different people.
pricelesses, focers(i think not. considering nick's character), cricket girls,
ANYONE.
i would need:
a sugar daddy firstly. coz i dont blardy hell-o print my own money. bleargh.
i want:
a. FOX's Drouse - 50% lah halooooooooooooo
b. CNK's sandals
c. DMK's heels - $23.90 and blardy nice!
d. OP culots/culocks/watever crap.
e. ESPRIT's beach tote.
f. GIODARNO'S polos.
blardy crap. how to buy without a sugar daddy?!

MUGGING
the most impt thing which i havent done since os ended. heh. i have done some. but...
AIYAYAYAYAIIIII.
i soooo need to start on chem.
blardy freak.
oh. history also.
blardy fweak.
READINGS!!!!!!!!
dear allah,
i need a boyfriend. NOW.
and pls let it be NICHOLAS TARLING.
thank you.
amin.
see. if i dont start intensive mugging, i would need to concoct an instant genius pill. which is 100% not money back guarantee, humanly tested on and has a 99.9% failure rate.

will u guys PLEASE stop breathing down my neck.
for fcuk's sake im SEVENTEENN.
not SEVEN!

words cant describe how f-ed i am right now.
ARRRGGGHHHHHHH.

i am slowly killing myself by not gg swimming.
or doing anything physical for that matter.

i think i need igallop too.
if it helps.
IN ANYWAY.
haha.

i SWEAR upon my newwww. errr. errr.
WATCH!! titus, mind you
THAT IF I DONT FINISH MY REVISION BY NEXT SUNDAY.
I WILL...i will... i will...
bleargh. dumb blonde moment.
BLEARGH. adrenaline diluted my brain juices.
shall slp on it.

anyways,
UNPRODUCTIVE DAY.
but fun nevertheless =)
more of this pls.

Decide on 20 random people.
Preferably 10 guys and 10 gals.
Don't read the questions until you decide on 20 people.
There is no ranking in the number.
Just random.
Tag 5 people to do this survey.
Ready?
Start!

PHRRREEEETTT!! i shall not do the tagging part.
though i think this is kinda fun!
nyahhhaaas

1. BEEYING y the hell did u tag me? y y y y y y y ?!
2. Rachel miss you babe!! u.me.bY. soon okay?
3. Hendra
4. Daniel Yiau
5. Zad
6. Tricia
7. Sam
8. Lek lek and sam. they come in pairs.
9. Zakir
10. Yong Jin
11. Nicolette this one and the one above come in pairs too!
12. Nicholas
13. Diana
14. Anjali
15. Timothay
16. Roxanne
17. Zul
18. john sloman
19. 'aliya
20. mimi

QNS
a. how did i meet 14?
saintaldeia II
b. what would you do if u nvr meet 1?
then i will not have a meimei.
c. what would you do if 20 and 9 date?
MIMI AND ZAKIR? hhaa. happening. both crazy.
d. did u ever like 19?
i love her okayyyyy. ahah.
e. will 6 and 17 make a great couple?
can ah. trish is crazy and so is zul. haha.
f. describe 3.
hend wants to make me wet without using his fingers
g. do you think 8 is attractive?
sam's guy. of course duh lah! my priceless has good taste!
h. say smth abt 7.
sam. haha. she has to look up to talk to me.
i. do you know any of 12's family?
nick's? hah. i dont know know. jz know.
j. wat is 3's favourite?
hend's hobby? make girls wet. HAH
k. wat would you do if 18 confesses his/her love for you?
then i will have an economist as a husband.
l. what language does 15 speak?
timo speaks a cross between eng and chi.
m. who is 9 going out with?
haha. seriously? i dunno. most probably a guy.
n. how old is 16 now?
rox's gg 17 soon!
o. when is the last time you talked to 13?
talked to di 2 days ago!!
p. who is 2's favourite singer/band?
the last time i heard, she loved twins? of course, if i made it big, she'll love me.
q. would you ever date 4?
heheh. daniel ah. haha. daniel. hehe. *giggles*
r. would you date 7?
sam.haha. we date so often that its called an outing!
s. is 15 single?
i think timo's single. unless trish and him. HEHEHEE.
t. wat is 10's last name?
last name is surname right? haha. QUEK.
u. wld u ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
i will never steal nic frm my xiaomei!!
v. what sch does 8 goes to?
cejaayyyy
w. where does 6 live?
serangoon garden. but most of the time with her tarzan in the jungle.
x. what's ur favourite thing abt 5?
zad's ability to make me laugh.
y. hav u ever seen 17 naked?
zul? sadly, no. not that i want to anyways. but i dont mind.......

damn fun!! ahhaha. funnyyyyy.
hehe.
i like.

haha!

i am so bloddy freaking smart.
i went to tamp, only to have to acc zad to bishan
and make him acc me back to tampines.
i am sooooooo clever.
oh, thanks ah zad!!

ahha.
ppl.

what do u get when u put:
guanhan
john
kelvin
zhenjie
firdauz
sylvia and
yusmar?
oh. not forgetting me.
HAHHA.
utter high-ness and wonderful music.
i hope.
other alumnis, lets dominate!
lets recreate the past that we lived!

ooh!
my mouth and jaw feels TIGHT.
haha.
i miss the feeling.
of playing till my lips became purple and numb.
SHIOK-NESS.
dum dum deeeeee

sorry sam i pangseh-ed u.
haha.
anyways.
i got my retribution by being pangseh-ed toO!

our fellow foc-er coming back soon!
haha.
crapping session or movie?!!

i am unwilling to take another step forward.
for now.

hehehe.
crapping session in the morn at mcs!
hahah.
trish said this:
when we get together, we cant stop laughing.
LIKE DUHHh!
hahaha.
<3

econs was wonderfully enlightening.
i love ms chan.
i love the pricelesses more, DUH.

lunch and movie was a blast.
subway made me burp till 7+++++pm
almost love was abdomen-killingly funny.

being in love is a wonderful thing i guess.
but how do u know whether its love or like?
for me,
like is physical.
love is hmmm. as though its always been there but its subconscious and when u realise its presence, u can harldly go agst it.

i have never been in love.
or maybe i have.
it is subconscious anyways.
zad,zul and colin are definitely not love.
now, im not sure.
all i know is that it DID develop subconsciously.
whatever.

-in the memory of my memories.

WOOTSIE WOOTS!

i had a ROLLING good time @ desaru.
the trip was a butt expanding 1.5hrs!!
coz it was raining.
hahaha.
oh. and coz i wasnt used to the road.
UPandDOWN.

it was so good to meet my cuzs again!!
there are....9 of us!!
hahaha.
oldest being 20 and youngest 8!
haaha.
those ranging frm 13-20 hung out together. DUH.
haa.

we....
rolled in the sand.
pushed each other into the water.
ogled at this HOT local.
ogled at this HOT foreigner
swam at the pool
played volleyball
pool-ed.
karaoke-ed.

I am officially hooked onto karaoke-ing.
PRICELESSESSS!!!
hear my cry!!

anyways,
the main point of this holiday is...
to see my cousins.
they rock lah!
crazy ppl.
imagine putting together 6 ppl who are...
OBSCENELY CRAZY.
haha.
lets make it easier.
me x 10 x 6.
hahaha.

so many things happened in a day.
i lazy to type it all out.
i guess leaving it in my head is better.


i wrote ur name on the sand.
the water washed it away.
i wrote it again.
and the wind erased it.
thats therapy for me.
but im not EXACTLY sure if its helping.

OHMYGOAT.
sucky ducky day.

my mum says that we're gg DESARU
trishandsam.haha.its a beach.not island.mixed up wif tioman =X
like THIS MORN.
i was like SHOOOOOOOTTTT.
trng tmr how?!
so, me, being my wise self,
called pricelesses : SAM AND TRISH.
sam: ohmans. i wont know what to do either.
trish: holiday lah babe, holiday!
AHHAHA.
i NNEEEEDDDD to consult my pricelesses coz mind u,
this is an EXTREMELY COMPLEX situation.
unlike hendra wanting to make me wet and stuffs.
or the fact that rox is depressed coz she's flat.

the million dollar qn:
TO GO, OR NOT TO GO.
as in holiday.
heh.
gg would means having fun.
tanning, tanning, swimming, beach games, tanning, tanning.
if not.
means i have a 0.0000000001% chance of getting into the team.
but then i can list the six players who would be in the team, NOW!
hahha.
jalea,anjali,diana,claire,wenhui,cinny.
SEE. its like IMPOSSIBLE. haha.

oh. furthermore, if i go. means i cnt go out with danielY.
SHOOOOOTT.
as in. still can lah.
friday.
but if i go out with him as planned on weds,
i can spend like 430pm - 9pm with him!
thats 4.5 hrs mind u. 4.5 hours!!!!!!
and if on friday,
it'll be only like 4.5hrs. 1230pm-5pm.
HAHAH.
butbutbut. its like DAYLIGHT.
hahaha.not fun.
btw, its only a movie.
*slaps myself for making a big fuss*

thanks to trish and her obsession with brazil,
evtime i see smth green and yellow,
i'll inform her.
TRISH! GOT BRAZIL SLIPPER AT HANGTEN!
TRISH! GOT BRAZIL HAVAIANAS AT CHECK!
TRISH! GOT ....
get the pic?haha.

the one million dollar answer....
*tummy drumrolls*
*snorts*
i.am.gg.to.
*tummy drumrolls*
D.E.S.A.R.U.

die. tonight sure nightmare jalea running aft me.

i realised that forgetting u is not an option.
i have only myself to blame for liking u.
and making the air between us tense.
i shall make myself scarce.
nono.
the only thing i wanna do right now,
is to strangle myself out of this misery.
the misery i brought upon myself.
butbutbut. i dont dare to.
my pricelesses give me a ray of light.
a ray of hope.

wahhhh.
my brain cells are DEAD.
shall elaborate later.

-the day before today-
I DID SOMETHING CRAZY THANKS TO THE PRICELESSES.
regret or embrace the fact that ive done it?
TRISH? sam says i should embrace.
hah.
ANYWAYS. the main thing is...
i went to sentosa.
yess ppl. scream, faint, do watever u pls.
haah.
i went to see the balloon hats festival.
with hendra, farah, illya and abang.
was OH SO COLOURFUL.
and OH SO MANY PPL.
but OH SO DISAPPOINTINGLY.
got no OH SO DROP DEAD GORGEOUS HUNKS
sigh.
i love the beach until hendra pulled me into the water
and got me SOAKING WET.
worse part: i have no xtra shirts.
now, u all can laugh.

stop laughing. NOW.

-today-
am stuck at home.
history-ed.
hahah.
for like the whole day.
full conc 12-2.
watch vcd 2-330.
3/4 conc 330-430.
watch tv+study 430-1130.
anyways..
thats the reason y my brain cells are dead.
hah.

trng tmr cancelled!
postponed to tues.
shoooot.
gp.trng.gp.trng.gp.trng!
i am prioritising.


i want all these studying to kill as many braincells as possible so that i could erase my memories of u. ur name, ur face, ur smile.evting.

hehehe.
ive been blogging evday. hahaha.

went back to sch today.
as in ai.
woahhh.
the band ah.
*shakes head**sits in corner**cry*
im not even sure im doing the right thing by coming back.
should jz sit behin THICK curtains.
weds mr thong not coming.
i shall work on ur BASICS ppl.
eh. SHOOOOOTTTT.
training.
*shoots all bandsmen**shoots myself*

anyways.
while in school,
saw COLIN!
woaaahhhh.
so damn happy.
i thot id nvr see him again!
woots.woots.
happy happy.

crapped with hendra, farah and illya till 5!
hahah.
tmr: BALLOONS HAT FESTIVAL!
or isit BALLOON HATS FESTIVAL?
bleargh.
at sentosa btw.

on a heavier note,
i would like to say goodbye to our fellow FOCer,
NICHOLAS TAN.
no. he's not dead. he's jz gg aussie.
go pick hot aussie babes, babe!!! =)
u will be missed by us FOCers.
esp if we ever decide to go out and crap.
HEH.

phreeeetttt! stop there u tootified freak.
yeah u!!
the one who took my heart away!!
give it BACK!

im back frm a very very successful outing.
ehe.
with my pricelesses and elsie.

we.....
shopped.
shooped.
shooped.
ate.
neo-printed.
shopped.
shopped.

haha. trish muz be REALY happy.
ahaha. she shopped like THE MOST.
haha.
elsie and i always asking her to try on this and that.
ahah.
eh babe! u SHOULD get padded bras. haha.
or.
i can lend u mine and u can stuff it with tissue!!
heh.

oh! we enteredthe edge @ bugis junction.
then saw this shop selling man shirts.
WOAH FFFFFF.
super nice lahh!
if only i have a boyfriend.
then i can buy them for him!!
haha.
like seriously.
i LOVE to splurge on my guy!
its like. u go out and u see this man thing.
and the first thing u think of is HIM
and u wanna get it for HIM.
sigh.

thank u elsie and trish for helping me choose the bottle =)
<3 u guys.
haa.
ohh! and for choosing the skirt which i will buy soon. hehe.

on the way back from mrt,
saw this CUTTEEEE guy.
but sadly oh sadly.
he's MY height!!!
and at this point.
trish and i STILL cnt get over the fact that we WANT to splurge on our guys.
bleargh.

band prac tmr!!!

to infinity and beyond!

Fatin Suhaila
2nd April :)
Zul Fazreen is <3.




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