Dear Fatin,

Pls stop being such a weakling. i never knew you were so weak. Pls stop doing this to yourself. You know it hurts u so bad, yet you still do it. Why Fatin? Why? Can't you be alittle stronger and resist it? I know you're working on it and it takes time. But seriously, its gone too far. You keep reacting the same way in the same situation. And oh gawd, you're jz feeding his freaking ego. You do realise you need better treatment right? Actually you dont need it, you deserve it. And seriously, your actions would never even get u near that. Buck up, girl! You are stronger than this!

i wish all this could translate into action. my action.

okay! pictures galore!

1) 17th Monthasary

Baby brought me to Anchorpoint to eat at the Disney thingy place! hahahaha. it was meant as a surprise for me. but i blew his surprise bubble in malacca. hahaha (i am good). cause there is only one place that is SUPER CUTE and 'fatin would sure like' that serves food (; the food there wasnt that bad and its more filling than i expected! hehehehe. the pizza is THE CUTEST MANS! hehehehe. love the deco toO! and im sorry baby, cause i kept looking at the big screen (which was showing ella enchanted) instead of looking at you. hehehe! many loves still! (:



2) MANYMANY DATES!

Zul&I have been going on MANYMANY DATES! how many? MANYMANY! (: hahahah! movies, dinner dates, car dates (when daddy let me use it; hence, explaining the car pics) and jz random i-need-to-see-you dates. (:

3) kampung/malacca trip!

okay. this took place like 2weeks ago? (: or was it 3? herm. anyways, most of the pics were taken on our way there, before i took over the wheel. u see alot of my good looking brother's face here. hehehehehheh! and it was super squeezzy back there! all in all, the trip was quite fun (: hehehe. although i didnt really get to talk to my cousins, but hell, they were ignoring me most of the time. shyness -.-

loveyou!

i have so many things to blog about..

1) malacca trip
2) 17th month celebrations

but firstly,

baby, here's a little sth sth for you (:

precious, the past 17 months have been great. we are definitely (confirmed, sealed with chopchopchop) wayyyyy past our honeymoon period and squabbles and tears were aplenty. but all the joy and love that u've showered on me nullifies them (:

the best thing about this relationship that i have never experienced and would not want to share with another man is the bond that we have with our families.. since raya'07, i gained another family (: another set of parents & siblings who cares for me. and i STILL think that my parents love you more than me. hmph!

the only thing we've to work on for the many months to come is knowing each other's friends better. i seldom go out with your ncc gang and hence, dont know them that well, though i'd love to gain another set of friends whom i can gang up with to bully you(: and i hope you can get to know my only-constant friend, mimi better (: then maybe you and mimi can gang up on me. HURHUR. plus! u can know how a girl's brain work frm a 3rd party (:

and of course, baby. i do want to marry you (:

i cant wait for mickey mouse!! (:

ive got alot to update about the exciting(not really but at least its sth) weekend i jz had but zul hasnt sent me the pics yet ): bohooo. so yeah.

i cant wait to go to school. like seriously ):

plusplus!
i need to be stringent! MUCH MORE STRINGENT! ): and im kinda disappointed in myself cause i went below my minimum savings amt ): sigh.

*snorts and snores

i wanna buy alotalotalotalot of dresses... so many cheap ones tempting me online... time to go for a run, fatinnnn!! (:

anyways, im pretty psyched for 6pm since im going to be meeting bestiewestie tonight! :D u see, ystd, we jz struck a deal for me to teach his brother (: i jz realised that i'll be dead miserable when my contract ends on 18jul since it'll be the end of my income.. so yeah (: im now teaching tuition thrice a week at reasonable rates (:

i owe rox an update regarding the uni issue, i know. but i really am a tad too bz for my liking. then why in the world am i here blogging? coz im in a call. and my other work require too much brainpower and that im afraid i wont be able to multitask effectively. ahhaha! anyways, i think i'll msg rox tonight (: (or u can msg me first if u read this and i havent msg u yet,babe.)

so, yeah (: got the news ystd.. im still waiting for others..but im currently contented with what i have(: anyways, still got time(: but im grateful (: utterly grateful (:

anyways, today hasnt really been great. SIGH. and noone's making it better. hopefully meeting bestie later helps. i deserve better treatment, seriously. sighaiaiaiaiaiiiii. seriously feel like going for a spree but im buckling up all my imaginary safety belts to keep me away from the shopping ctrs (: hopefully i wont break free.teeheee! (:

i demand for better treatment, thankyou.

OH! DID I MENTION THAT BESTIE'S TURNING 19 AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT?! (:(:

anyways, im reallyreally sick of working. but no work, no money.. OH WELLS ):

pardon me for the previous post..

oops. too many siblings' photo. HAHAHHAHA

okay. i un-officially have 2 mothers now :D hehehehe. dont be jealous kays? ehehehhee. so yeah :) now at zul's place (being forced to blog).. jz came back frm cwp from buying mothers' day pressies :) hehehehe.

actually.. i dont really know what to blog about ... sigh.. but what to do... forced by someone and whats worse? HE'S SINGING! like seriously omgggg mans. -faints

wells, work's been okay:) i actually brought home my thinkpad to finish my charts (so i can go back office and slack since i also go no mood to do work) hehehehe. OHHH. had pilates last fri (ystd). and OHMEGOSHNESS! I AM SO TERRIBLY UNFIT! it feels like the VERYVERY first time i trained! hahahaahhaha. which is actually a good thing lah :) hehehe.

talking abt training, ohmy ohmy, i really miss it :( monday&wednesdays aft school used to be hanging out at canteen (since training starts at 5) and watching cinny(pocky legs! nono! WICKET LEGS!) eat. hahhaa. followed by mass changing sessions (alot of laughters in the toilet), 2 or 4 rounds ard track followed by circuit/skills. OMG. I MISS THE GIRLS SO BAD :( practice games are still the BEST mans. while our team is batting (only 2 players out at field) the rest will talk crap, bitch and tell horny jokes. hahahhahahah! and of course, i wont forget those 966 bus rides with lots of bitching and horny jokes. hahahha. MISS IT LAH! :(

i need a bigger ego.

a bigger ego to stop me from always saying sorry (or first one to make peace) when im angry and not at fault. (not my fault, say sorry, the other party should be happy right and treat me better? but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i receive the same shitty treatment as when i dont say sorry) sigh. why must my ego be so small? i want a huge-ass ego to make me a stronger person. i want a big ego so that i wont be bullied by other's anymore. sigh. its so emotionally tiring to be hurt over and over again thanks to this stupid pea-size ego i have.

come on ppl. take advantage of my pea-size ego before god reads my above request.

ARGH.

met the little brother at suntec to get his levis' signature :) hahaha. it wasnt on offer. but yeah. he deserves it lah since i havent gotten him anything since i started working. furthermore it was sooooooooooooooooooo pretty! :D

went to teach hairi and exposed his extended family to my short fat legs. grr. and sent the car back. kinda regretted i spent so much but ohwells. i still got a little left for saving PLUS my food is well-taken care of :D

my 'cubicle' is more personalised now :) time to print pictures of me&bestie to add to this collection :D

thank you for trying your best to make me feel better as i pms. i appreciate the effort :)

to infinity and beyond!

Fatin Suhaila
2nd April :)
Zul Fazreen is <3.




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