Monday, December 11, 2006
i was a
huge mess this morning.
=(
i was so
damn disappointed with myself this morning.
i woke up at 730.
when i was
supposed to be up by 6
coz trng is at
8.
so
damn disappointed.
that i actually
cried abit in the bus.
whatever happened to the
Fatin...
who's forever
punctual?
who arrives in school
30mins before the activity starts?
WHERE THE HELL IS SHE?
ive changed.
so much..i wrote an entry like this on
sept10 this year.
frankly speaking, i was
never conscious that ive changed.
i know im more. err
. suan-ey and '
dirty' now.
but my attitude...
sigh..
im
not a role model.
but i was seldom
late and i rarely
misbehaved.what more be
lazy and
ponned lessons.but those in
red are exactly what im doing now.
was i
tied to my roles
and it
prevented me from
rebelling?
okay.
to a certain extent, i think i was.
as in.
whenever i want to do something
rebellious,i think
twice.would i want to get into
trouble with mdm jo?
what would the
student body say about the vicepresident?
would the
bandmembers still
respect their BM?
and i
dont do it.so many times i wanted to
skive sc duty.
so many times i wish i was
outside rather than having band practice.
now that im not '
bonded' to anything,
am i
'making up' for the times i didnt rebel?
i guess.but is this
wrong?
i know it
doesnt feel right.doesnt feel...
me.
and while im feeling all
depress-y and
whine-y about my attitude,
i
HEARTHEARTHEART that person who
bared with my complaints,
and
understood.FINALLY. SOMEONE. =)
thankyou =)
<333333333333333333333333333333and not forgetting
bestie-westie mimi=)
who never fail to give
outrageous but sensible comments
which
cheer me up =))
iloveyoualso=))
CONGRATS ON THAT A! IM DAMN PROUD BABE!giving more may not be a two-way process. and may be hurting. this is a self-warning.
Y7:45 PM
